A small life update
For me, it reaches about 3pm and I wonder “what do I do now?”. With my lack of A levels and therefore much of my motivation to work and be productive decreased as my main goal has gone – I end up coasting through the hours until it reaches dinner and then bed. It then becomes a continuous cycle. The less you do, the more tired you feel, so the less you do. It’s not like I don’t do anything – but compared to my continuously busy school and work week, it is noticeably quieter.
But I began to wonder, if I’m not doing anything, why do I feel so tired? Turns out there is a scientific explanation, besides stress and changes in my personal life. When you’re lacking any sort of physical activity and your body stays in the same position for longs period of time, its ability to take in oxygen decreases and you will notice a huge drop in energy levels and motivation. Your body lacks the stimulation and movement it is used to in everyday life and when you allow it to feel lethargic and tired, well it is.
The only way to break through the cycle of tiredness is to do something – but once you’ve baked your fifth banana bread, done enough home workouts that your legs hurt and read a lot, the motivation to do something diminishes. I think allowing ourselves to be ‘lazy’, tired and have a bad day are not necessarily awful things, it gives us time to reflect and it’s a forced break in so many of our busy lives. Staying connected through FaceTime, Zoom and WhatsApp allows us to realise it’s not just us feeling this way – although our specific personal circumstances may be different, we are all in the same boat. Just perhaps braving different seas, weather conditions and different amounts of manpower.
Diet, nutrition and hydration can also have a huge impact on how we feel day to day. The temptation to snack all day is definitely hard to resist but eating a nutritious and well-balanced diet will help your body feel more able to get through another day. Making sure you drink enough water is also key, this is something I definitely need to improve on, especially now in England the weather is currently hotter and sunnier than dreary February – staying hydrated plays a big part in brain function and energy. But when you’re out of your normal routine, it is easy to forget.
With so much sudden and (mainly) unwanted change, finding a new normal is hard but key. The constant uncertainty definitely brings anxiety and my ‘planner brain’ wanting to have the next few weeks sorted isn’t getting what it wants. Things for me recently have dramatically changed as people in my life now play a different role and I’m adjusting to a life that focuses on me and my priorities – as this time definitely allows me to re-evaluate relationships and personal goals. It is scary, hard and daunting – as looking at the past brings a mixture of hurt, joy and sadness. But in time, once this strange period of lockdown has ended and we have all (myself included) adjusted to another new normal, when life resumes again – life will bring new joys and that is exciting, even with the fear and anticipation that inevitably follows.